The pain in my heart is piercing
From being misunderstood
Have sought peace
In every place
In every face that looks kind
Still finding peace have been futile
Betrayal have met me at every turn
With a contrived smile.
Trying to hold onto the warmth I have inside
Though I am getting cold
Gripping the promise of tomorrow that things will get better
Yet my chest grows tighter
As life strangles the fighter
In me.
Oh my
Oh why
Do you mislead me?
Isn’t my past sufferings
And destruction
Punishment enough?
Unfathomable time, I have extinguished
Being careful
Strategizing and training for the perfect match
To fight a fair battle
And put my wartime to permanent sleep
While you have been scheming to catch me unawares
And lead me towards the edge
Yet I hold back just in time
And get away
To fight another day.
It’s like a bad dream
That keeps repeating itself
Haunting me
Taunting me
Threatening my respite
From the inescapable turmoil.
Am I misunderstood?
Battling a losing war?
To extract the poison from my bittersweet nectar?
That follows me around
That belongs to my family
Yet, have now curdled
With my blood.
In a life that seeks
Clarification
Ratification
Validation
Absolution
Purpose
In the Madness
There is no Cessation
No Peace.
Yet as a Warrior
I fight when wounded
With my skin turned inside out
Body contorted
My efforts confounded
And bruises salted with my restless fears
Festering
From the wear and tear on my spirit.
As Warriors
We are Ignorant of our weakness
Though we grow tired
Relentless in our efforts
For happiness
And solitude.
We dream of surrendering
But stay alive to continue the war dance
That ruthlessly pursues us
The soul in the soles of our feet holds us up
And keeps us steadfast
On our path to peace
And salvage
Of our broken dreams.
Credits: Creative Commons images courtesy of Giovanni (1st image) and torbakhopper (2nd image).
Powerful! I really hope that you have written this for another. I hope you are fine.
Loved these lines in particular-
“Yet as a Warrior
I fight when wounded
With my skin turned inside out
Body contorted”
More power to you my friend!
Thanks Shivani. I am trying to be fine. I wrote this for me as much as it is for you and others. For we are all warriors fighting the good fight one time or another or battling continuously. But because we never give up…we get to a better place of peace and rest, where we can enjoy the light on our face. Hope you enjoy your week ahead. Peace to you.
This is a beautifully written poem. Thank you so much for sharing!
Thank you 🙂 and you are welcome. I hope your week is going well so far.
This is a beautiful but sad poem. It ends with some hope, though I like the caption to the last image the best: ” it never weighs a true warrior down.”.
Be the warrior and have courage!
Thank you Peter and thanks for stopping by. Yes it starts out sad but ends with much hope and triumph. The idea is to express that the struggle is very real. As well as, great disappointments will at times show up, even with people you trusted. However, a true warrior always wins in the end, because he/her never gives up and is courageous despite their fears and the many challenges in their path. Our enemies actually fears and despises true warriors because they realize they are relentless in their pursuit for peace and happiness. For the bottom line is you truly cannot stop an individual that will not stay down, even after the enemy believes they have conquered him or her :).